Tuesday, September 11, 2007
2 more days to the actual shift in, and i haven't pack a single bit.
Think i just get the boxes, load everything in, bring them over and unload everything out. Lazy la..
Movie with Jessika today..Evan Almighty..lame show..but a entertaining one..can destress for awhile..thats true i must say.
BTT today, and guess what? I FAILED! I am totally useless wat. Never study also..
Something's up these few days..like going through the motion again...stoning and i feel many times like i have left my brains at home.
Back to work again tomorrow, work 2 days then move off again to help with the shifting.
The negative thoughts are all over again, feel so trapped. Hate people to think that i bothered, when really, i dun actually care.
For one thing, don't say you are close to me if u haven known me well enough, don't think that you are obligated to do anything for me if i am around, cos i dun need it, and if there is a need, i will get it or go there myself. Dun feel like doing it, then say No. Simple as that, because i never expected anything in the first place. If i dun expect anything from you, then don't expect me to give you first class treatment as well. So dun bother about how i will think, cos i dun care, and please dun do stupid things, just because you dun feel like it, and dun dare to tell me in the face. Cos no need, if there should be anything i need, i will open up my mouth and ask.
I have type a whole lot of rubbish, and still dun understand what i toking about. Just a thot, nothing in particular triggered it, prob due to the blues that i am getting these days.
Still trying to put down the whole episode. Chapter close, aftermath damage decreasing as time goes by. Good news in a certain sense.
Time to pack and then hit off to bed.
10:41 pm
