Sunday, January 21, 2007
Why issit that i am never able to pinpoint where the fault lies.
Other then linking it back all to myself, i couldn't find any other way. But this vicious cycle is causing me my self esteem.
一个人的我应该会过得比较好。只少，不会添给任何人烦恼。
是我不够好？ 是我不够了解? 或者是我要求太高？有或者是我太依赖你？
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The year didn't start fantastically for me. I am really beginning to think that i very 犯太岁。I am at crossroads, i still cannot decide for myself what i want, there are many many things. And i don't know who to turn to. So in turn, i turned that energy into sleep, and i did nothing except work, sleep, work, sleep, work, sleep......
10:10 pm
Monday, January 15, 2007
Hi peeps!
Haven been updating for a week.
I am down with cold yet again. Running nose, hurting throat and weak limbs and a painful jaw line.
Nothing much to update, i didn't go out and lazing around other then being ill, of cos, the rain played a big part. But i did stay home and mahjong-ed though! Just that i didn't step out of my own home and play.
Entering into the 3rd week of 2007, and i haven thought about my resolution yet. I mean its not a BIG thing that i HAVE to do, but at least, i need to sit down and think how i would like to see myself improving this year. Hmm.......I shall have that up soon.
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I have got my answer actually, that is why i am not thinking so much.
I am still waiting for that dinner though. And i miss those times...
3:58 am
Sunday, January 07, 2007
谢谢你，让我又想起这首歌。
有些话不能当面出来， 这首歌就送给某些人。
我很想你
你知道吗如
果可以 就让我再见你
美好微笑
清澈眼睛
好确定那场分离只毁了我
一个而已
我很想你
听见了吗?
这是唯一 我无解的困境
那些过去
不肯过去
不管我后来遇见多少人
只能叹息
都不是你
我只想爱你
11:12 pm
Thursday, January 04, 2007
Why is it that it seems like there dun seems to have many topics to talk about.
10:26 pm
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
2006 has finally come to an end.
Been reading up blogs and many had penned down what happen in the past year and what they are looking forward in the coming year.
Nothing much for me though. Just that 2006 had been the year i took my first baby step into the world of society, immerse myself totally with full responsibility at work. The taste of a true working adult.
The beginning of 2006 was not too good for me though, fell ill, had to change jobs because of that, found a new job and i find myself having difficulty adapting simply because of reasons i detest the most.
Basically not alot of exciting stuff, yes i changed quite abit, but the major events that happened would be that God gave me a chance to get to know my fellow colleagues in office, many i loved dearly, they brought tons of colours into my life. God gave me another chance to "reconcile" with those i had difficulity talking to in the beginning, things has finally settled down, place right into the place at where they belong.
There was events that happen as well that cause me to change my views in relationships. I stopped being 执着 with the relationships around me. I guess i am too stubborn in the past, but i came to realise that there are things that are beyond my control, and there are many things that i cannot insist my way upon.
I no longer dream of marrying the man that i am with now because i came to realise the kind of dream that i had is scary. If the time comes, and its meant to be for me, that yes, i will gladly accept it, but yes, i no longer seek it as if its my ultimate goal.
I shan't pen down all the names that i would like to thank, Because i have already sent my personal messages to each of them mostly via friendster and 2 via sms. And i think without them i wouldn't have made it through the year.
God has been good, kept sending me great friends this past year.
Mr Big, for still being so big no matter what happens. It must have been a hell of a emotional rides. I promise, there WILL be MORE to come...but you've got promise me that you'll still be as big as ever.
Jing, Nana, Pok, without the 3 of you my daily life would have been a bore. You may not realise, but you 3 really changed my life. And i love being loved by you guys.
and YOU came into my life unexpectably, brought me an eye candy and your companionship has been great. Great memories, great companionship, and in just a few months, you've become quite important to me. Really.
Last but not least, to the rest, you know who you are, you've receive my testis, I love you guys. From the bottom of my heart.
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Something i dread most. Its the fun and loving friends i have in my workplace now will soon come to and end.
9:47 pm
