Wednesday, March 29, 2006
Hello *waves* I am back as promise with the DnD photos...
Thats me and Mr biGbIg...We had a hectic day man...rushing from here to there...look at the dress i bought...i am such a fatso...trust me...i am really trying my best to "Jian Fei". We took a cab and rush down to Rasa Sentosa. Cool, a very nice place i must say. Can try to go and spend a night there...the pool is beautiful. We entered into the hall, lucky there wasn't much people arrived as yet. Settled down, get ready for some action!! Due to space constraints, i wun post all the pictures, people interested in seeing the pictures can talk to mr BigBig. I will only post some of those which i, yes, is yours truely me who have taken the pictures.
The peeps that we shared our table with. They are such fun people. Keep making ure that mR BigbIg and i got food constantly on our plates because we were walking around taking pictures. Darren as usual, being gay in the second picture. HaiZ...
There were groups of people who came in different costume...Some came in "Vampire" costumes and "Transvetite Vollyballers". So hilarious can! Some came in "Geisha", "Pirates", "Forever Fever" and "Bollywood" costumes...how sporting can everyone in Eusoff hall get? 3 Cheers for Eusoff Hall man! (Opps! am i toking like as if i am one of them too?)
The contestants of the Eusoff Hall pageant. Cool, all handsome guys and pretty gers...drool! Drool!! Drool!!! Hehehehe
He is one of my favourites..handsome right??
Another Of my Hot favourite..this want has got character!!
The 5 Guys together...
My 2 favourite female contestants..
The gers together..
My favouite couples
Most Talented Couple
Mr and Miss Personality
Mr and Miss Photogenic...truely photogenic they are..
Mr and Miss Eusoff!!
And some candids shots
help mE!! Dun Bite me!! Ouch!!
Oh! I can't believe i am MR EUSOFF!!
Finally te damn dance is Over!!
And Finally, after one hour of blogging i mean, uploading of pictures..
I am so damn tired uploading all these photos....Haiz...Hope you guys like it..... ask Mr bigBig for more...There is still so much more....that words can't describe...
6:51 pm
Sunday, March 26, 2006
"I wanna go Home!"............Nonono, I mean, i wanna "go to Home loungue!" Hahahaha...Jeremy got tricked by me...hehehehe
Just came back from Home Loungue. And here i am dutifully blogging about it, as i think i wouldn't have much to blog anyway throughout the week which i will be dedicating to work. Well...Hahahaha
Met up with Weide, Mankid, Sherry, Jeremy, Showen and 5 other of his friends. Instead of seeing 2 botaks, I ended up seeing 3 and out of the 12 of us who went, only 3 holds the
PINK IC, the rest all holds the
Green 11B. Aiyo..Civillians overpowered!
Brought my bottle of tequilla there, but still, nothing much was touched. Sianz...dunnoe when then can finish. Probably will have to keep till Mr BigBig's friend come back from UK then can finish.
Wanted to take pictures, but i ended up without any. Hahaha, my fault my fault. I was too engross singing and playing with those guys. Then i last minute wanted to take picture with my dearie Sherry Baby, but, weide's hand is too shaky, so all ended up blurred. Haiz...
One of Showen's friend quite cute leh...was discussing with sherry baby about him, used to be in the same company as her, but she had no idea who the hell is he. Well, you see, when you are a lady walking around tekong, everyone else will know who are you, and whats your name. But i think he look like a long time Child Star, i think the child star used to act as Zoe tay's son in the gambling show “双天至尊”.
Had quite a good time, but i think it will be better if is just us alone, then can catch up more. Cos too many people, we ended up doing our own things, some went to play pool, some sing, some play game, some play magic..
So long never see Sherry Baby, did some catching up with her at the end, but only abit. Must date her out again and do some real catching up.
Alright, i am very shagged already. Still have to wake up early to see my Mr BigBig...will definitely upload the pictures to the DnD tomorrow.
Ciaoz...
3:29 am
Saturday, March 25, 2006
Back from yesterday's DnD. No, i mean back from it, slept for 9hrs, woke up eat lunch and now blogging. Hahahaha.
Kinda miss school alot after yesterday's event. The people are just so fun! Make me think of E-guides. Mr BigBig thinks so too. Eussofians are very united and fun. I don't know about the other hall la, but yeah, they really come dress up for the event, and was so sporting throughout.
Will try to upload the pictures tomorrow. Miss those pageant guys, which i don't think i will be seeing them anymore, unless i bump into them on the streets. They will forever remember Mr bigBig as LEE ANG the Director. And prolly me, the "ka gia" Hahahha. So nice, when they see us yesterday, so hyper, everyone just went, “ aye! 导演！你来了啊！”。 They were so happy when they saw us. Perhaps is the thots of having good and nice pictures which sets their mood even higher. But nice people they are. Hahahaha. Felt a sense of achievement already Mr BIGBIg?
Gonna meet weide and Mankid later, i exclaimed that i
"die die" also must see the botak heads. Hahaha..
Raining now le, how ar? I wanna go jogging wan leh....
2:11 pm
Monday, March 20, 2006
Uh..first day today...Quite cool...fell asleep though...Hahaha
But i love the distance!! Start work 8.30am..wake up 7am..hahahaha!! What else can i ask for..
Sat through the training today..was introduce to the infrastructure of the whole company, never felt so comforatble with things before..
But i haven met my supervisor yet, cos she is on leave today...Dun know what is install for me tomorrow...
Going for NUS Dinner and Dance @ Rasa Sentosa this Friday...But i forgot i dun have a dress..shit! Hahahahaha...
The boat reach the head of the bridge will become straight? Hahahaha
8:47 pm
Sunday, March 19, 2006
Had a normal but tiring day today. Went for service, and guess what? I was so damn late! Cos i woke up late!! at a freaking 3.30pm!! What a piggy am i man! Actually i was woken up by jun kuan, who made me talk on the phone with him for a whole freaking hour! Came down had my breakfast and Bam! felt asleep again. Hahahaha
Heard Mark sang today, i guess he is prolly too nervous? Or he didn't practice the song enough. One of his lousiest i must say. The song wasn't even suitable for his voice. The last note of each sentence just evaporate and down into the loud echo and music. Worst part was the ending, his voice break! But i admire his courage, still look confident on the whole, which is, ultimately the best essence of performing.
Went for dinner at East Coast hawker after that with Xinyu and BT. Had a very filling dinner. Actually i didn't eat alot, but it was just damn full. My original plan was to prolly have some porriadge or something. Am not feeling well recently, stomach keep getting very upset, there are tons of air inside and i feel so bloated. Need to release it once and for all man! Hahaha, and a good time or diarrhea may do the trick! YEW!!
Went for Cry_Wolf at cineleisure after that. Is quite a brilliant movie i should say. The twists and even more twists in the plot will allow you to think that the screenplay is really brillant.
Imagine liars calling liars, up till a point of time, when the truth is out, people still thinks that you are lying. Imagine, the suppose "shepard" of the whole movie is actually the "mastermind", and yes, JON BON JOVI acted in it, and yes, just as you realise you knew it all, and the director brilliantly reveal yet the one and only truth at the last 1 min of the show.
Go catch it man, is definitely worth the bucks! And remember to bring in popcorns and watch it. Not a show that will bring you into it, but something you can sit back and watch and enjoy. Yeah!
Going to hit the bed soon. Eyelids are damn heavy. Bye Bye
1:41 am
Saturday, March 18, 2006
Wanting to end the saga and put it behind me. Been plague by this thought since the start of this week.
Coming to accept the terms that singaporean women are highly competitive and materialise.
(taken from cleo mag). I guess i am too, to a certain extend i guess. I love to pamper myself too. I love to eat at good places too. I love recreational activities too
(like going for KTV once every to 2 weeks?). I love to buy pretty things too. I love to have a high salary so that i can do many many things.
This period of time is a time of humbling for me. Not that i am humiliate, but i do learnt something out of this 1 month jobless thing, saw where my mistakes were, pick myself up and restart all over again.
I don't ask for much, just that mr bIgBig will love me with his heart in is whole lifetime that's all. See? simple right? Such a simple request, but which is the hardest to accomplish, which is true.
God just bless this relationship can le. Thank you PAPA!!
Learnt to be content with whatever you have that is the basic line. Cherish what you have on your hands, whatever good that comes along the way is a bonus or a add-on. And what that is bad, treat it as a experience learnt, grow up from it and move on to conquer new grounds. Life like this would be happier i guess. Isn't it?
Will try to blog more these few days, don't know if i will have the time to conquer my blogging skills again once monday comes.
Ciaos!
3:42 pm
Thursday, March 16, 2006
Interesting swf...
Click on the link and enjoy! So funny!!
I want a fat babe has been taken down from the server...what left is a porn site. So sorry about it.
4:21 pm
The Devoted Lover
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11:23 am
Had quite a good day today.
Found myself a job after trying for a month. Nothing fantastic, but nonetheless, i am happy, at least, start all over again. I shall not despise small beginnings.
Met up with Weili today, sms Jiaming and saw Jiezhi with his girlfriend. Cool, so many people in a day. And yes, now all my boys are in army, leaving only Mr. Showen still in civilisation. Showen, Kambatte neh! You are the last to fall in! Hahaha. Had a good time catching up today over my usual rasberry tea from Starbucks. Haven had a relaxing time for so long, and i guess this will be my last? No more luxury of having coffee in the lazy afternoon anymore. But then again, i rather to be working then doing anything else. At else, i work my ass off, i am still paid la!
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While waiting for weili today (as usual), suddenly had a thought on many things well, certain friendships, certain people. I guess, from what i have experience these few months, be it getting into a new job, leaving it, finding one, meanwhile catching up with friends, so on and so forth, i have learnt 2 major things, and this 2 will be the major in my life from now on. My perspective has changed towards these things from now.
Throughout these one month, i realise, there are people whom i realise, are worthy for me to press into their lives, some which is just a waste a time. Period.
Competitiveness was the one word that came right into my mind. People fight, when they are in school who has the highest score who has the lowest, they fight when they step out into the society and work, what kind of job you are in, most importantly, how much you are getting paid, they fight, literally everything. Which is true, from keong's blog, i don't fight my enemies everyday, those that i fight everyday, are my friends, those constantly around me.
I came to think competitiveness = materialism? My thots nonetheless. Don't blast me off. So what if your results are better? It doesn't mean you are successful? So what if you ger a higher pay? it doesn't mean that you are successful too? I came to realise, having more money, or having any social status isn't anything important. It does matter to me at a certain time. I wanted to outdo many people when i graduated. But after going through some things, i realise i have been missing out alot of things.
Therefore the decision to start all over again and work from scratch. I realise taking small steps at a time is the best choice for me. No doubt taking big steps and leap, AND IF YOU CAN MAKE IT, you will be successful. But how many can actually make it? I fell though. And people who take small steps at a time usually are more steady and secure.
So what if i earn less then others? At least my life is more fullfilling then before i must say. Fighting more wil only make me thirst for more. Alittle fight is good. But too much will cause you lots of harm and humongous "medical bills".
I shall not despise small beginnings. Taking joy in everything i do and go through. Build up my character again, to build up everything else i have lack in providing for my loved ones.
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Which leads me to think about happiness. My relationship with Mr BigBig. The many other relationship that are around me.
I must say again, that my man don't have to be a very 'high-up' in society man. I remember a friend once asked me, "You like xr to become a photographer?" imagine saying "this is my husband, and he is a photographer." of cos, saying "hi, this is my husband, and he is a doctor" is much better, but, yap i have found my answer to answer back. Photohgrapher by nature is a profession too. For one, not everyone can be a photographer. At least, you and i can't.
I rather be the woman behind my man, supporting him in whatever he chooses to do. I guess that is definitely the primary role of a woman behind the man of the house.
Money can be earned, but not happiness and character. Not forgetting character can only be moulded when you go through tough times. Money cannot make you successful and make you leave a legacy once you are gone. But character does.
One more thing which i need to highlight, that is money cannot bring happiness. The world now has turn so many couples to become materialistic. Happiness don't drop from heaven you know. Yes, with no money, you will quarrell, over it. But if you truely love each other, you are willing to work hard together to bring in the pennies and the pans. In that process, you go through thick and thin together, your bonds will be stronger, and thus happiness will come, because you will love and most importantly treasure each other even more. At least for one, money when you have plenty, and not manage properly will make you become a complacent person toward anything. Just look at Paris Hilton herself. And why issit that we usually have the perception that once our husbands are rich, they may go out and play, because tons of women will be flaunting their assets at them. And not have the same perception when our husbands are not that rich? Well, i must say is a very thin line to cross over here.
In my own words, money cannot buy you happiness and a great relationship. Happiness only comes and will be and perfected when 2 imperfect pple fight together in one heart towards a recognised goal. And their character moulded in the process.
Of cos i am not saying having money is no good. I am just saying, don't look at the money at the beginning of everything. What is important is elements and the process. Money will be the bonus if you pass through each stage.
For once i can say, that i am very happy with what i have now. Especially with mr bigbig. Yes, we do have our quarrells over monetary matters, but each time we go through it, each time we supported each other through thick and thin has brought us even closer to each other. At least, those memories that i held in my heart are so precious to me that i will never forget about it.
*Dun fight back on what i say. Comment only when you agree with me* no one reads my blog anyway..hahaha cool....Something off my mind. Gonna repaint my nails. Bye!! Gonna spend a good 2 full days with my precious darling!!
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Some links to let peeps see what my precious has taken. Ask me? He is the best photographer in my opinion!!
12:35 am
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
How time flies my dear, It has been a great 2 years already. I have never notice how time actually went pass us when i am with you. Been through abit here and there with you. No very very trying times, but we do have our own challenges to overcome, and yes, we have come thus far.
I dunnoe exactly what to say. Because to me, every moment spent with you is like a special day. No this is not a cliche. You will definitely understand what i mean. Our moments together are always so sweet, it tingles even when i am remembering it.I want to let you know that you are the greatest gift that God has given to me.
You taught me alot in these past 2 years. Everyday, with your tender loving care, your sense of responsibility, your givings, your sense of humour never fails to make me feel like i am the happiest woman on earth.Thanks for supporting me in all ways when i needed you.
Sorry that i have always failed in whatever i wanted to do. Thanks for providing me with whatever you have. I always feel that, if it wasn't for me, you could be living a very much better life. But you are still willing to share whatever you have with me. I am very touched.
I am sorry, that i cannot spend a good anniversary with you. This is the second wan already, and it always seems that our finances are always tied down and we can't really spent a good anniversary together. I promise, that i will put in my hundred percent in finding and securing a good job soon and let me make it up to you when all these happens. I promise.
Though, we always never had enough finances to spent on our special days, but, yeah what we went through will always be precious memories to me. Will never forget every single detail about it. Something i will hold close to my heart forever.It is through all these times, that we iron out our differences, and bonded even stronger, i am sure you feel the same way too.
I am serious, when i say i don't need diamonds and expensive presents, i just need you to love me even more, kiss me alot more, thats all i ask. Simple.
I am so touched whenever i see the very concern face you have when you know that i am not feeling well. The next thing i want to promise you, that is to really take good care of myself, be good and take whatever medication that is needed to bring the condition down. I will do it! I will be your healthy baby again! I wil go running also, like you always pushed me to.
Thank you baby, I love you. Looking forward to many many anniversaries to come. And i don't care, you HAVE TO spent time with me every year on this special day! *MuacKS MuAckS*
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世界唯一的你
是你
第一眼我就认出来
这是命运最美丽的安排
是爱让你过长的等待
我们只要现在深爱
幸福就来
恨我来不及参于你的过去
抱歉让你等待
我愿意付出一切交换
我灵魂的另一半
这个世界唯一的你
是我拥有的奇迹
对我说的一字一句
都是我们的秘密
紧紧拥抱唯一的你
无可救药的坚定
就是世界与我为敌
我也愿意
我什么都愿意
看开过去所有的悲哀
都只是寻觅我唯一
勇敢真爱照亮了漆黑的夜晚
寻找了彼此一辈子
再不分开
恨我来不及参于你的过去
抱歉让你等待
我愿意付出一切交换
我灵魂的另一半
I will climb the highest mountain
I will swim the deepest sea
对我说的一字一句
都是我们的秘密
紧紧拥抱唯一的你
无可救药的坚定
就是世界与我为敌
我也愿意
我什么都愿意
我愿意付出一切交换
我灵魂的另一半
Oh..
就算让我上天下地
我什么都愿意为你
紧紧拥抱唯一的你
无可救药的坚定
就是世界与我为敌
我也愿意
我什么都愿意
Loving you always....
1:30 am
Just came back from Helmi's place. Was there with Mankid, Shaowei, Wendy and the star of the day, Mr Chen Weide..
Weide is going in to army to serve the country with his utmost best this thursday morning. So is kinda like a last gathering with him while he is still a civillian.
Did nothing much actually, other then just eating and drinking. Never eaten since the day i left my job. Kaoz, my stomach is still so bloated.
Weide and Helmi went swimming in the noon, was there to be their ah-sam, feeding them tibits while they were happily playing water. Shaowei later brought a bottle of Choya, is damn nice i think. You guys should go try it.
Not forgetting that we cook cabonara for ourselves as dinner. With Helmi's recipe. It was successful. Loads of bacons. Hahahaha. I love it though. But weide had a hard time finishing it up, he has weak stomach. -_-"
Ended the night with a few drinks, and a few rounds of games. One day spent away like that. Haiz...Still no job le...how???? God Help me!!!
Jiahua is going away to thailand for 3 weeks later in a few hours time. Think is gonna be a real exciting time for him. Poor Haoyun got to be strong over here. Can de! Jia you! Actually, i also wouldn't know how to react, but i guess i have open up abit after being 2 years together with Mr BigBig. No matter how much dependent i am on him, although is difficult, but i think i will be fine if he NEEDS to go away for a short while. One month? Two months maybe a little trying. But long term i definitely cannot take it.
Haoyun can do it de. So Jiahua i will be waiting over here to hear your exciting stories. Cheers!!
1:01 am
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
There is still no news for jobs. And i am getting very very anxious. Bank account is depleting, how am i suppose to survive through the month? I am getting all the jittery feeling, coldness feeling, goosebumps, fear, of what is going to come and whats not going to happen.
People kept talking about quarter life crisis. Is it true that i am having one right now? Never felt so useless before. On my way home yesterday, i just thought about the things i have achieved so far. Seems like all my 23 years, there was nothing significant that i have accomplished. No savings, no achievements, no job, dunnoe where i am heading.
Shucks! This feels so terrible can!-------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Speaking about yesterday, well, i really had a great time. Met up with Weide, Mankid and Showen. We went to "Boardgame Paradize" together with my Mr BiGbIg. Introduce
d the game
"Munchkin" RPG. Quite cool and stupid at the same time. But fun. Hahaha. Stupid Mr BigbIg sabo me..make me go back to level 1. Wah lau eh..of so many people sabo me!!
*ANGRY* Hahahaha. Then after that, weide and me gang up against the 3 of them. So damn fun la, peeps out there should go and play. We are even thinking of buying the game home sia!
Later on, we walked to ECP mac, sat there and chit chat. Talk about alot of things. Mostly relationship, i never really talk about these kind of things with those guys before, quite interesting to hear about the different views and perception. I think i am going to miss them alot since all of them are going into army soon. Like in less then 10 days time? Gonna be so bored after that. No one to talk cock sing song with me anymore. These are the real friends i made in Poly. Went through think and thin, crap, eat, travel, drink, slack, play game, pool, ktv of cos, most importantly, STUDY TOGETHER!
Sad to say, these are the guys who really appreciated me as a friend i guess, even if not, at least they MADE me feel so. Busy or not, sure make time to come out and catch up on each other's life and share about all the worries and troubles. Sometimes, even if i will to keep quiet and listen to them talk about DOTA, also very fun. Gonna miss them heaps!
Talking about friends. Sometimes i wonder have i miss abit or two. I realised i am always the one to pressed into certain friends' life. Always the first to call them, ask them out, send them sms. But i will never be on their first priority call list. I'm will never be on their mind when they thought about buying some mementos to bless other friends in the same group or whatsoever. I thought we were suppose to be together? *Shrugs* proberly there is something wrong here. But well, sometimes i too read too much. But i just can't helped it whenever the thoughts crosses my mind. Sometimes when i see certain pictures. I just few very sad. Mr BigBig also mention that he seem to lack in this particular area too. And i will joke saying that prolly thats the reason we are together. "I have you, You have me!" Yeah!
Will always remember a scar that was left with me when i was secondary school. We were a group of 4. Always hang out together, play together, buy the same ELLE bag together and joined the same uniform group together. Then came a stupid National Education project on Friendship day. Where you were suppose to do up a Certificate of Friendship and present it to the dearest friend of yours. So i happily did what i was suppose to do, went to school with the lovely certificate with the bearer's name. When we exchange the certs, i realise, my gang of 4 neither of them gave it to me. I was so disappointed that i almost teared. But i remain strong la, they came to apologise though, but i told them i was fine. Many years went on, the wound is no longer hurting, but i think the scar still remains. But well. Hahahaha
Which is why i kept feeling like i am a failure. Nobody is interested in my life. Especially when i am out with the old people from church. I always feel like a prop. *Shrugs*
I did everything i knew how. Wanting to be there when my friends are going through turbulent times, sms them to see how are things, spent time with them etc. You name it, i did it. Prolly i did too much? Well, nevermind. Like what Mr Bigbig says "Sui yuan lo.."
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I went to the doctors' today. For a condition which i have been having since day one i started work in the society. I always get rashes namely
Hives at the end of day. My body temperature will drop so drastically that Mr BigBig will get so scare cos he say i look like i am freezing cold. I will turn pale, get goosebumps and the Hives will developed. And this usually last for half to an hour.
The funny thing is, i don't developed it when i am home. Usually, always when i am out. Especially after i eat. I don't think i can take cheese cake anymore. I have been on anti-hastamine since then. But i couldn't bare the thought of having to be on medication everyday. So i told myself i am going to see a doctor soon.
Because i had to go over to Mr bigBig's place to help his mum do some chores as she hurt her leg. I walk past the polyclinic, saw that there wasn't many people. So i decided walk in for a consultation.
The doctor says i might have a disorder called the "Raynaud's Phenomenon". A disorder common among women. The doctor have to give me a referral letter to book an appointment with a specialist to do further checkup.
Refer to
http://www.niams.nih.gov/hi/topics/raynaud/ar125fs.htm for information on the disorder. Hopefully i will turn out fine?
*Shrugs* I have been telling telling Mr BigBig that I might not live long. Peeps please remember that i want a ivory white coffin to lie in. Remind Mr BigBig, cos he will forget. Hahahahha
9:18 pm
