Tuesday, May 22, 2007
Just came back from dinner with qingy and justina.
Had a super full one though..had Sakae Sushi and The V Tea Room for desserts!!! I just had to come online to mention these before i force myself to sleep (oh Gosh! Its work @6am tomorrow..best thing is i think i am going to be alone!!).
As usual, how fantastic can Sakae Sushi be, its The V Tea Room that i've got to mention!!
Located at level 1 in Esplanade, its been around since God knows when, being on media before, and i have always been wanting to try it but never had that chance. (Dun ask me why, ask 马先生). Anyhow, i just brought it up that we should go for desserts since its still early, and non of us are in the mood to shop.
Was in awe of the decor when we step in, victorian theme, pretty and dainty cups painted with very beautiful roses, the table tops are decorated with petals from the pink rose. Masquerade mask and oil paintings hanging off the walls, everyone in there was in the mood. LOVELY!!
Ordered their signature liqueur teacakes "Baileys Irish Cream Liqueur Teacake" which cost $15, and a Premium Cake Melt in Blueberry Flavour which cost us $20. For desserts, its on the steep side, but it definitely worth it! The moment you put the cake into your mouth, Oh Man...its fantastic!!!! I have never had cakes like this before, and i felt like i was in heaven for a very short moment!
Here's a picture of the Premium Cake Melt, its actually half melted. And when you eat it, it kind of leaves a sticky after taste, and the small shot glass you see in the picture, its a kind of drink, which you are suppose to take a small sip to clear the taste after you finish the cake. One of its kind definitely, very special, something which you can't get from anywhere else!
We didn't take a picture of the Baileys Irish Cream Liqueur though, simply because the presentation of the cake was spoilt when the waitress pour the glass of baileys over the whipped cream, everything just fell off!! But nontheless, this cake is definitely a must try!! Justina and i simply just love it!! Its so rich with with the coffee taste oozing with the irish cream flavour! Marvellous!!
2 cakes and 3 glasses of ice water cost us a total of $50. Expensive, but its a must try, at least once! Really!!
Alright time to meet up with the Z monster, its 6am work tomorrow. My voice is still cracky..like a man's voice! I need my beautiful voice back!! Its my baby you know? *sad face* miss my voice so much!!
Anyway, great singapore sales has already started. Do also remember to sign up at your nearest ATM for the GST credit rebate.
I wanna go Hongkong!! Bleah =p !!
11:07 pm
**Super BIG YAWNZ**
I am seriously in lack of sleep i guess. I have already concussed for the whole of my sunday. And i am still feeling tired.
I should be sleeping by now actually. But am still up because i am trying very hard to, yes very very hard to get that stupid playlist up. Should have started using Imeem form the very beginning. Shrucks!! Am also still figuring how the hell i can get that playlist up. Hmm....**BIG Eyes small eyes**
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A dead heart, is kinda hard to revive. The only way is to give it a new lease of life..***********************************************************************************
2:31 am
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
Bringing closure for certain matters.
Time to move on.
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一时迷惑 一路犯错, 给我死心的理由, 誓言融雪时别沉默 我的美丽只剩哀愁怕看见温柔眼眸, 就无处可躲 你时而热情时而冷漠的双手多叫人心痛********************
1:06 am
Tired. Need to get back to work tomorrow.
Nothing much for me after the happening weekend. My off days were spend pretty relaxing and was substantial enough for me not to feel bored at any point.
Great "town walkabout cum catching up" session with my lifetime buddy, Irene. Relaxing Tuesday was relaxing, duh of cos! Other then the fact that i was utterly dissapointed with my Ben, i really have no idea how to teach him, i feel my patience running very low on him, and looking at his progress, i really have no idea how he will make it to P4, he couldn't even read a passage properly, can't even read 'as' 'to' 'which' 'who' etc...i feel like giving up already. But part of me is reluctant, i just can't bare to throw him aside. HOW? how? HOW???
Had a peaceful night with 马先生. Initially was not suppose to meet him, but he had to make the trip down to my place because i had stupidly uninstall the modem yesterday night. But turns out, the stupid me didn't realise that the current network is "smart" enough to switch themselves. So basically, he make a wasted trip, but we went to have dinner together of cos, at the coffeeshop just down at my "new house going to be". Quite a nice 煮炒摊.
Was on my way out to Boat Quay at 8plus, by the time i walked out to my carpark exit, i realised i may have some stuff to prepare for work tomorrow and of cos, i was actually pretty tired.
Went back home again, watched "Deal or no Deal", pretty good show, but felt sadded for the lady tonight, i admire her courage, fight till the end, but so much for her courage, $750. Well, nothing to loss for her, so..well...Hahaha
Hmm..funny thing was, i actually enjoyed myself tonight. It just felt nice....i bet is the feeling of having someone being physically there, pampering me and stuff.
Quite a few people whom i know are getting engaged and married this year. I may not be invited to be there to share their joy, but by hearing this piece of good news is enough for me to feel really happy for them from the bottom of my heart. These few couples i do know them back dunnoe how many donkeys years back, saw them through their singlehood and finally got the man/lady of their dreams. It was pretty saddening for me, that the friendship could not continue out of the four walls of the church, but will still remember them and will keep them close to my heart in some corner i believe. Seeing, hearing updates about them from their blogs, friendster and even from common friends, is good enough for me.
Just want to congratulate them, friends who are still in church and still reads this blog, namely KK, you know which couples i am talking about, please send my best wishes to them ya? Thanks!!
Prolly something inside me is ticking as well....but prolly i am still not ready for it.
12:41 am
Monday, May 14, 2007
That's what i needed now. Period.******************************
On a lighter note, i had quite a happening weekend though. Almost 6am and i am still not asleep yet. Updated my Music Blog, do visit more often, will like to share my favourite music with everyone and also maybe could make use of it to introduce new singers to everyone, if there is great music you guys can show your support by buying the albums and stuff.
URL: http://musicofmyday.blogspot.com
I shall come back and update more later, right now, i can feel the Z monster calling me, and my bad throat protesting!
Nites!
5:43 am
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
大棵呆 炒韭菜 烧烧一碗来 冷冷我不爱 阿~ 我不爱(多一点爱多一点色彩爱。。稍稍晚一点来在冷我也会等待）Hahahahaha...so funny!!
1:53 pm
Saturday, May 05, 2007
感觉怪怪的，全身都也觉得怪怪的。
身边的人也是怪怪的。
xinyu!! i miss you la!!
I think i cannot breathe anymore.
*tears rolled*
12:58 pm
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
Hey Kay, thanks..your "you are so much more than what u feel u are." Had a little impact on me.
I think many times, i actually limit myself to who i think i am, and what i think (or others think) i should do. Years of people meeting, years of friendship making, comments i've heard, had mould me into someone who is very conscious of oneself. I'll think of what i want to say, and after i say it, i will question myself if that was proper, and if i feel that its not, i will find ways and means to explain myself, or to 'redeemed' to the so called 'error'. And that, often leads to weird behaviours from me.
I guess i am feeling so restricted with who i am, what i am doing, where i am, what i should do, and these have been weighing down on me pretty much.
I feel like crying many times, but not many of these times, did i succeed to shed those tears. Only once after so long i guess, that was when i broke down in office after that fateful call from that monster customer. But i guess, me breaking down was not purely because he was difficult to handle, because i usually don't give a damn to diffcult customers, and will simply shut them off by telling them "Thank you for calling, have a nice day...toot....toot..toot". But that fateful day was because i was at my lowest point, and that episode was just a catalyst to cause that breakdown to happen.
I felt the same way again today. But i was zombified. I was drifting around like a real ghost queen. Big in size, long and messy reddish hair, and super dark eye circles. Mermaid kept asking me if i am alright. Fact is i'm not. I just have no idea how to bring my problems across.
Sick of the place i am in (Wherever currently), sick of the job scope, sick of relationships that seems to be hanging in the air going neither stale nor fresh, sick of the me inside, sick of being penniless, sick of teaching tuition, sick of sleepless nights, sick of the mentality i had which often lead me into situations where i couldn't control myself. Most importantly, sick of not knowing who i really am, and what i really like to do.
Relationships around me seems to be distanting. In office, at home, people who are constantly around me. Probably because i am in my dark period, that's why i couldn't find a common ground to break into, gone were the days where i look forward to going to work. Raining in the mornings makes it worse.
At least, i managed to talk to my beloved Nellie, i felt a stab in my heart when i see her fragile body walking into office that very first day after what happen, i wanted to hug her and cry when i see the glow all gone from her face. At least, i manage to talk to her, disected the whole thing one by one, listen to her and shared with her how i really feel. I mean, its the first time i "counselled" someone of a higher status then me. But i thot i did make some sense there and got her thinking. I hope i really helped there, and this will be my only comfort.
To you, and you know who you are. I think, really, we have to take things slow. For so much good times and bad times we've been through, and no matter how hard i try not to make "money" a stumbling block, it seems to be able to always find its way back again and again. Like i say "only in hardships, will you see the true characteristics of a person" and this month, only magnifies everything for us. I am not saying that every relationship should be measured with cash. Infact, it shouldn't be.
For every single relationships that existed in my life, i will try to give as much as i can. Not because i am rich. I was never rich. But to me, if i can afford, and it will make you happy, i will gladly do it. If i am shopping, i come across something which i thot you will like, i will buy it. All these, just because i thot, it will bring a smile on your face. Was reading a blog before i made these entry, and one of the sentence went "You can give without loving, you cannot love without giving". The first time i heard this was almost 10 years ago, and it has been with me since.
20 bucks for a fantastic and fun day will always be an event so memorable that every details of it reamins vivid in my heart.
And for the very first time, i realise that i will go super zombified and super tired and face pale after crying.
There are many other stuff as well, unspeakable and admist all these, i feel like i need to get a good scrub and Dethol, scrub myself and my heart clean, shave my hair which have ben carrying so much of my thots all these years.
I think i need to press the button, upgrade and have a good reboot.
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除了转角，另一个让人心寒的是圆圈。 当你发现自己在兜圈圈时，会期祈祷上帝给你在圈圈里找到一个90度的转角。
10:48 pm
Located at level 1 in Esplanade, its been around since God knows when, being on media before, and i have always been wanting to try it but never had that chance. (Dun ask me why, ask 马先生). Anyhow, i just brought it up that we should go for desserts since its still early, and non of us are in the mood to shop. 
Here's a picture of the Premium Cake Melt, its actually half melted. And when you eat it, it kind of leaves a sticky after taste, and the small shot glass you see in the picture, its a kind of drink, which you are suppose to take a small sip to clear the taste after you finish the cake. One of its kind definitely, very special, something which you can't get from anywhere else!