Monday, January 31, 2005
Woow!!! I had to blog this!!! ThanKS to SAF for taking my bigbig away from me...i have decided to do something constructive while missing bigbig terribly...i went to jog around the reservoir and after that, i went on to paint my my room all by myself..Cool isn't it?? I have never done that all my life, i was dead bit tired after that, but it sure feels fullfilling man.
Everybody say :" Wah!! I'm so proud of faithy!!!!"
Another thing that's worth mentioning is that the blogskin is finally fine after so many weeks. i love this one..but couldn't use it for weeks becos of the codings...thanks to the designer man...
Another update would be my current tuition kid intro me to one of his friends..so now i will be taking another kid under my wings, and will be having it on right after i finish my first kid. I will be terribly tired le, but i was thinking why not..but i just have to see if i will still be able to cope when the final semester comes...is been such a long time since i can really spend a day together with bigbig, i want a day, not a few hours...i mean a day...just him and me...hmm..miss him alot...
2:43 pm
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
I am feeling tired all over again..tired of the things around me, tired of everything that i am doing..Think i need to refresh my life once again....I need to be refreshed!!! This week i keep having this "heading to nowhere" feeling...i am not sure why also...nothing in particular have happen...i really mean nothing..Is just as if suddenly i don't know what i am doing..and i really have no idea where i am heading...I am like all alone in a dark dark corner..even when dada calls me, i will always get very chirpy, very excited..Don't feel excited about anything anymore...
Of cos i do understand that there are ups and downs in one's life...i need to type it somewhere so i can chunk it away..come to think of it..the time of the month will be coming soon...PMS that's what they call it...haha..ok i should be gettingon with my codings...bye everyone
9:44 am
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
Wow..is has been a good 13 days since i last touch my blog. My owner of the previous blogskin that i am using has decided to remove the skin for good so i am now using the "by default" skin. Qingy is in the process of helping with a new one though. Thanks qingy!!!
Nothing much to update also actually, just that i have got my new and sparkling k700i and is considered a gift from my big. ( And is only after a whopping season 1, 2 and 6 of Sex and the City, that i realise the character "Carrie" calls the man in her life "Mr Big", ok, is a slight diff la, i call mine "bigbig" in chinese.) Had my hair coloured Black again, and had it rebonded for free!! Yes, freaking free!!!!!!! Hahahaha, i love being a wella model!! But letting alan rebond my hair for free would mean that i will not be able to see him as often as i wanted. At least for these teo months i cant touched my hair.
Oh, did i mention i went sun bathing with bigbig, Jh, Haoyun and Liping?? Is been such a long time since i expose myself in the sun, and i am going to get a new two piece (maybe a bikini) so i can go sun bathing properly, although i freaking don't want to turn charcoal. Is the fun out in the sun la, i want to remain as fair as possible, so i kept applying sun block. But it makes me feel healthier...but the ironic thing is, when i got back, i got pretty sick, and with rashes all over me other then the "sun-burnt" part. But it was definitely fun and after sun bathing, we went to have bbq dinner at marina south.
I wanted to add another resolution in for 2005....I want to control my anger more...not as in i am always getting angry for no apparent reason, but the way i do things, the way i sound when i am angry...control and supress that stupid anger inside, so that i won't do stupid things. Nope, dun be afraid i don't kill when i am angry....
Oh, bigbig play a trick on me the other day..i was too tired and hasn't sleep well...then i when i went to his house on sunday, i was so tired that i fell asleep and snoring on his bed...then he find it funny so he took my phone and record down everything while trying to wake me up for dinner..it was so so funny...let me know if you wanna hear it..you could even hear him laugh in the recording...hahahhaha. How bad can my bigbig get??? *sulks* hahahaha......
In any case, i am running out of things to write...beginning to feel old....don't know why also..alrighty..ciaos people, i love you all...i love you bigbig.
1:32 pm
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
I really couldn't imagine what my life would be like without you. I am so glad that you are always here for me, even though you can't be here physically with me, but your words and your voice brings comfort to me. Your the advisor of my life. You are just like my co-pilot. My life God has given me, and you He has given me to be by my side to be my pillar, my light, my sun. I really cannot imagine how i would live my life and how would i be like if you are not here with me. But i felt so bad cos i have been like the only always running into trouble. And you are always the one that will come help me. I am so fortunate to have you in my life. I want to selfish at least for one thing, that is i want to have you by my side forever. I love you bigbig, my biggest bigbig. My best bigbig, my wisest bigbig. I found a song. And i want to dedicate to you. Is the chorus that i like most, for you my baby.
I wanna grow old with you
Another day
Without your smile
Another day just passes by
But now I know How much it means
For you to stay
Right here with me
The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger
But it hurt so bad I can't take it any longer
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you
Sharing in everything you do
I wanna grow old with you
A thousand miles between us now
It causes me to wonder how
Our love tonight remains so strong
It makes our risk right all along
The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger
But it hurt so bad I can't take it any longer
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you
Sharing in everything you do
I wanna grow old with you
Things can come and go
I know but Baby I believe
Something's burning strong between us
Makes it clear to me
3:27 pm
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
I suddenly feel so miserable. I am starting to think that i have a miserable life. I feel like suddenly i am trapped in a pit hole. Never be able to get out. Regretted.
I am still cursing that stupid person with a black black heart who stole my handphone. CURSE YOU WHO MADE MY LIFE EVEN MORE MISERABLE!!!!!!!!!! SCREW THE SPARE PHONE THAT HANGS AND SWITCH OFF ON ME EVERY 10 MINS!!!!! Hated the project that i am doing. Hated having to come school everyday at 9am going home at 5.30pm.
Few proposals have come up of my head. Thinking. More tuitions?? No New Year Clothes???
5:19 pm
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2:27 pm
SHiT!!! I lost my mobile phone!!! Don't ask me how...because i practically just cannot remember how i lost it. But most slightly it was pick-pocketed away from my bag. DAMN IT!!!! i am just so useless, can't even take care of my own things!!!!! And the phone is not mine own somemore.
Now is going 12 plus am already, and i still cant get to sleep...i keep thinking about the phone...there is this unspeakable amount of anxiety and restlessness in me, I don't know how am i going to get a new phone. My mum doesn't want to help me out with it. Shit!!!!
Why will i lose the phone??? And why did i lose the phone at this kind of timing. Curse whoever that got that phone from me and refuse to give me back!!!
DAMN IT!!!! I am just plainly useless!!!!!
1:27 am
Thursday, January 06, 2005
*clap clap* So happy!!! I am so happy!!! Bigbig called me just now!!! Yes, just now!!! At 10.22am!!! So surprising!! I was so surprised to get his call at this time of the day. And everytime i will only be the one to sms him if i miss him. (i can't call cos his in camp) Today at 10.22am bigbig called me to tell me he miss me!!!!! Wahhahahahahahahahahaha!!!!
*over at cloud nine* I flying already!!! Hahahahaha but i know dada is feeling alittle low today since he woke up this morning. Cos he 'teh' throughout the phonecall. I know he didn't like being a NS man, must be cos yesterday he night's out, went out to northpoint woth his mates and breathe the outside air which is so much more alluring then inside. Anyway, i encourage him alittle, blow some flying hugs and kisses tell him to cheer up cos if he feeling down, i will feel down also. Plus somemore this weekend, becos some NS men got caught smoking, so all of them kena have to stay back extra day, so instead of booking out on friday, he will only book out on Saturday morning or noon. Sianz....which means he cannot come to the chalet with me. Hmm..i miss dada. I shall go pick him up this saturday, and give him a good long hug when i see him. SET!!!
(p.s: anyway, i promise dada that i will blog abt this becos it so rare to get his call during this time of the day!! 10.22am!!! i shall remember..!!! Love you dear.)
10:58 am
Wednesday, January 05, 2005
Wow!! I almost couldn't believe myself. I have actually stopped using my lau kok kok computer for a month already. And to think that i have once so loudly proclaim that my lau kok kok is my ever dearest lover, whom i will always look into its eyes and sing beatiful love songs to him. After one whole month, of 9-5.30pm facing the computer in school, i have cultivated this new habit in me where i will just go up to my room and face my new 'lover' which is my tv from 8-12am. I have totally not touch my lau kok kok since the begining of my 'prisoner' days. And my lau kok kok has certainly be passed down to my good not so young sister who have been hogging on my lau kok kok since.
And today for some reason, i decided to come down and sit beside my lau kok kok and chit chat with my darling horse. And so the memories of the sweet old past with lau kok kok came flooding back, and me for the first time in this month, touched lau kok kok for the first time. And guess what??? I suddenly felt as if i am in a foreign land. it felt so weird touching lau kok kok after so long. I think i have been to used to my new servant in school which is at least one generation younger and 10 times as fast as lau kok kok. And i am like a doctor now, looking thru lau kok kok, and have found several abuse areas. I quickly prescript my medicine to save lau kok kok. My dumB sis must be thinking that lau kok kok is still as strong as ever, falling to understand that lau kok kok is already lau kok kok, you cant force lau kok kok to run a 100m in less then 12 secs. I felt as if lau kok kok is crying out help!!!!!!!
I think is time i get a new zai zai (lau kok kok's grandson) soon. And lau kok kok will be able to retired for good. Lau kok kok has serve me for 6 long years already, and i want lau kok kok to retire in glory. *sayang lau kok kok*
10:50 pm
i have finally changed my blog skin. Been searching for one that i really like, thot this one is good enough. So decided to use this. I wanted to add in my gif inside but cannot cos the gif file is too big. So i have to makeshift with this first and continue to debug. Hmm..suddenly there is lots to do as PR1 Is coming this monday.
Did i mention that i have my hair changed??? Now i am spotting a very black hair. Hahahaha So cool, i really like it. But the thing is the hair stylist cut my hair too short le, i kinda miss my long hair, now my hair is so short and is no longer straight anymore!!!! I need to do rebonding another time. Err....he cut away all my rebonded hair...and i only like have it for 2 months only. Must go bug him to rebond my hair for me. Arrgghh!!
I will be back for more..soon.
1:28 pm
