Tuesday, June 28, 2005
Before i go disappear into the thin air and break myself down due to the plenty of stress....i want to claim that MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING!!!!!
*anyone going to celebrate with/for me?* *hint hint* i shall have my bdae wishlist before i am deprive of having a wishlist..
1) levis jeans
2) a set of formal clothes ( shit technical presentation coming)
3) Teva slippers
4) blood bros cloth slip ons.
5) iriver (best, or any mp3 player will do)
6) flowers (tulips or red roses) hahahaha i love flowers
7) new computer
8) forever 21 shopping vochers?
9) manicure and pedicure
10) i want to spent alot of time with friends whom i love dearly. (this is very important!!)
i have never felt so miserable before. I can't even enjoy my special day. I have to mug for my termtest. SHucks!!!
The sadest thing is i can't even plan for my own bdae!! My bdae is on the 8th u see....but i got termtest from the 6-8th!!!!! arrgghh!!!
Anyway, i do forsee a quiet bdae this year..prolly only dada will remember..anyway i am old woman, why celebrate anyway.
No i shan't think about it!! arrghh!!
I am so stress!! shit! and why the &^$%#& do i need to do the stupid LS survey report by friday 8am when i have a major major submission for my MP on friday 12 noon and termtest next week?? I find it so ridiculous!! arrgghh!! I hate you!!!!!
Happy birthday to Jiahua!! 3rd july
Happy early birthday to irene!! 9th of july
Happy early birthday to myself!!!
11:54 pm
Sunday, June 26, 2005
Curse You zeng liqing!!!!!!!!!!!
&*^&^$##$()*()(*&%%$%&*^&*&%$#$&*&^&^$####
4:42 pm
Friday, June 24, 2005
For the 1st time in my whole life, i broke down due to stress. I cried when dada called me yesterday night.
I hasn't tried feeling so brain dead before that i don't feel like doing anything anymore. I stared on my monitor for upteem hours, and i still couldn't get myself myself going. I open the up the report, type my first sentence, and i didn't know how to carry on. I couldn't piece my sentence properly, i couldn't think of a proper word to use. In my heart, i was very anxious, as i was to show my draft today, and i hasn't get it going. I tried my best, but nothing came out. I never felt so dead before. And i told myself to go have a rest. And i cried when dada called to check on me yesterday night. I handed on a piece of white paper with only few workings on for my maths quiz yesterday. I knew the basics, as in i know how to do it, it was easy, but at the point of time, my brain just don't work. It was dead. Get what i mean? no matter how hard i tried, nothing came out of it.
I feel like i am the only one chiong-ing. Is so hard to fight things alone. I had the ability of doing many things at the same time. But i never tried feeling so alone and stress till i broke down. And i cried the second time when i woke up this morning.
But i had a good night sleep yesterday night. And though i never woke up in the morning to do my draft, i think i had set myself on good record that the supervisor was kind and understanding enough to let me not show her anything. She told us that the group is one of the few she had that she didn't need to worry, so i could skip the submitting of draft part and go direct to the final submission( the most stress part). She also add in a little pressure la, by telling us she would desire( yes, that is the exact word she used.) a A report from our group.
At least most of the things i needed to do for other subjects are all done and submitted. I could concentrate soley on the fnal submission for next friday. Rest one more day, things will be fine i suppose. Termtest in 2 weeks time. I am afraid of dcode. cham. good gracious, first time i my whole life i am so damn stress.
ciaos. i feel better after pening my thoughts.
(ps: flash is getting some improvement. Thank God.)
(p.s.s: oh! i forgot that i actually have one more stupid LS report/survey not done! shit! damn!)
2:12 pm
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
My dear came especially to my place today after work just to pass me things!! I am SOOOOOooooOOOO HAAAaaaAAAPPPPpppYYYY!!!! *skips in Joy*
Many of you must be thinking "chey!! wats the big deal?" Well, the big deal is that while i was doing my weekly jogging sessions, i was just thinking if my dear would just pop up by my area to see me or pass me the things he bought or me ( you see, he told me he bought me shorts and tees). It was just a normal thought that i entertained. As skeptical as i can be, claiming that i knew my bigbig the best and i convince myself bigbig wun come. I gave him a call despite me panting for my own breath perspiring like a living well cos i simply just miss him too much. ANd there and then, he gave me the most plesant surprise ever!!! "hey, guess where i am? BEDOK RESERVOIR!!" I was stunned!!!
Though he came becos there was someone in base living near me and gave a bunch of them free ride, but still, he came down to my house to meet me after my jog. Just to pass me the things he bought for me. I am so falling in love with him again!!! HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE
U make my day precious!!!!
11:00 pm
What has the world becoming to???? OH NO!!! i was just being alittle caught up with the recent blogging scandal, and while i was reading, i was thrown off my seat!! I couldn't believe what i was reading!!!
How could you have sex just for fun??? How could you have sex when u don't even love the partner in action with you??? How could you say having sex for fun dun cheapen the sacredness of sex???
Am i too conservative or what? am i too old to understand what the world is beoming to?? U mean u could sleep around with many men and could still feel love?? Lust has totally eaten you up.
where do our morals stand now? I feel so sad, disguested.
1:16 pm
Friday, June 17, 2005
Guess who i saw when i went running at the reservoir this eveing???? Mr. CLEMENT CHEW! wow!! He one fit zhai wor...*whistles*
Anyway, i wanna say
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my dear
KOK XINYU!!!!
Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!!!!!!!
1:05 am
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
To Cheerene:
YA LOR!! Very ex right? COs i thot i am late already. Then i didn't wanted my friend to wait for me. SO i took a cab. IN the end guess what? Fter i reach woodlands..I have to wait 1 full hr for him to come!! Arrgghh!!!
TO Capitalist:
No!! I wanted to go woodlands. As of above, i wanted to go woodlands, Got myself a cab, uncle ask me which way i want to go...i mean how i know how i want to get there?? so i say...i dunnnoe...up to you..as long as i can reach there on time and fast and below 15 bucks. I am quite sure it will be below tht price becos long time ago i took before. But i forgot the route.
THen this damn driver just went explaining he cannot ensure below 15bucks becos traffic hard to predict, and he told me there was once he drove someone to AMK, taking PIE to CTE and it was cheaper. SO i say anything. Then he happily took me up PIE, CTE then SLE. Grammatically, it already sounded longer, so lest the actual travel distance.
I am such a dumb head can. wah lao, we could have gone on TPE then SLE. SHIT. THen cos i not enough cash, i give him my card lor. So in all plus admin fees, $20 bucks.
Thats why i say that money i spent could have gotten me to the otehr side of the country yet i only made it to woodlands.
SHIT I AM SO FUcking DumB. ARRRGGHHH!!!!! I am so angry With MYSELf!!!! I aM BROKE!! DEAD BROKE!!!
7:12 pm
I have been conned recently. Not once but twice!! By cab drivers. They take me round the whole of singapore and con my money. I took 20 bucks to come WOODLANDS! YES WOODLANDS. RIDICULOUS!!! 20bucks can bring me to jurong and i still have money left for a bottle of ice moutain. what the &%%$$%^.
And now, i am here waiting for my turn to get my hair treatment. SHUCKS i am DAMN BROKE now!! (*&^^&%%^^&(**&%^^%^&%*###@^*&
11:59 am
Sunday, June 12, 2005
Drinking sessions with bigbig and his armymates...3 out of 5 is drunk. Dead drunk.
Virgin party ( first time i mean) given to a club called Thumper at Goodwood Park Hotel. Guys above 26 then can go in. But not as good as i thot it would be. Is very squeezy. Then wanted to changed to Devils Bar, but too long a queue. Went to Starbucks instead.
Hmm..not that i would love to embrace such lifestyle. But i want to take a look.
Anyone? Devils? Or Chinablack? Let me know..
2:12 pm
Friday, June 10, 2005
A piece of dead meat for sale, anyone wants??? *going for once...twice........*
12:55 am
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
My poor bigbig is sick. Don't know whether he got pass the baton to me...
8:15 pm
Monday, June 06, 2005
A series of unfortunate events...many things are happening. And i could only say i am traumatised by it.
I suddenly realised what is the true meaning of life. No more fairytales. They are all a hoax. Beautiful dreams are very very far that i don't even dare to look or even think of it.
Change is the only true terrorist of life.
I haf this little thot inside my pea brain, is not good. I am actually quite easily influence. NOTE: will "YOU" take me for granted like the others?
The secret dreamworld is gone forever and ever.
The secret dreamworld of a thinkaholic.......when the going gets tough - the rough go crazy...
1:22 pm
