Wednesday, February 28, 2007
Trying to do some catching up here and there.
I went for my Company's DnD on Saturday 24th-FEB. Because not alot of people in my department are going. Not even my girls. But because i was pressurized by my supervisor, and i said " If uncle is going, then i'll go!" Just because i thot he will not turn up as well, which the truth is, he HAD to go because he had flown my supervisor aeroplane once. And i overlooked that fact, and then yeah, i was there, at Swissotel.
I was stunned when i reached there, i almost chickened out and wanted to go back home. I didn't realise that my company was that big! 120 tables. Compare to the 8 we had when we had our Masquerade Night back in Dec'06 (I forgot that was just department dinner).
Most of them were guys, all from ops.
Quite fun, and my department only filled 3 and a half tables including management. Pathethic right? But we were still the funnest people around, joining all the games, with our guys stripping down right to their boxes. Hahaha. And we were the first to go down and dance!
Who say minority cannot make an impact!
Someone asked me to dance, but i was too shocked to react. And i just walked away. Let me apologise. Now let me rephrased what i was suppose to say. "I'm sorry, perhaps other time? I am leaving the ball soon"
I'll load the photos up soon.
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26th Feb. I must always remember this day. The worst thing i ever had ever since i joined my team.
I was deem the lucky one, cos since day one i have been with the team, i never experience weird cases like china config, sri lanka letter, system down etc. NEVER!
But on the 26th. It was the worse! it seems like everything came down to me on that very same day. In fact is not just me, many of my team mates handled bad cases on that day as well.
It was so bad that i burst into tears, but thank God no one saw because of the seating position that i am in.
It was only when Cyn came back and realise something was not right, and offered to help me. Thanks dearie, you are the sweetest.
But when i settled my stuff and went for my lunch, she also handled very troublesome cases, and all i could do, its to help her in every other way that i could.
Then, i was suppose to meet XR to go for a movie. And i had to wait for half and hour for the damn bus to come! and then while we were on the way to Cathay, one old lady fell really badly because the bus driver didn't see that she hasn't finish getting off the bus, and just drove off. Oh man! that fall could have caused her life! But thank God was watching over her, cos we were right ourside the church. Just imagine the worst, oh man.
It was really eventful that day. I'll marked it down on my calender.
Ciaos guys. Time for tuition.
Will be back with the photos.
2:59 pm
Let me apologise for the lack of updates. Trying to catch on with tons of things which i have been missing out.
CNY is almost coming to an end. How's everyone's CNY? Collected lots of hongbao? and earn quite abit over the icing floor or round or square table at home?
CNY was so-so for me. Couldn't celebrate CNY in any case. But still managed to get alittle thanks to XR's relatives. Didn't get to earn over the floor or the tables as well, didn't lose all as well. But i did get to learn a new and interesting game, which get ur brain juice almost washed out at every round, and not forgetting the super tedious money calculating at the end. Told you, i never had luck in gambling.
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Caught a string of movies, Ghostrider, Dreamgirls, Protege and Letters from Iwo Jiwa.
All are good films, i'm lazy to go through each and everyone. But i can be sure, these shows will make what you pay worth. Highly recommended is Protege and Letters from Iwo Jiwa.
Actually i will recommend Dreamgirls as well, but if you ain't a music lover, you might think its just a normal film. But because i am a vocals person, i simply love Dreamgirls, and am on my way to get the OST. Jennifer Hudson is superb!!!
Listen to Jennifer Hudson - And I'm telling You, I'm not going (Click me)
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Things never seem to be settled among certain people. No matter how hard you try, it seems that the harder you try, the more mistakes they will pick on.
Its a case of values are changed? Or that relationship was never real in the first place. These stuff are in my opinion, nonsensical stuff. To me at least.
Its like there is nothing better left to do, and i'll pick on things or people that to me, if damage is done, they don't really bother me in any case. Or if the friendship is gone, it won't hurt in any way.
But when i reiterate their actions and my actions, there seem to be nothing wrong, and it only magnifies that really, i have too much time left on my hand to pull such stunts.
Its like me picking on XR when obviously he is just trying his best to make me happy. People doing their work not on the right process, not illegal, and still got the customer happy. Friends who may not hold a proper job and still able to party and spend, buy things and eat good food.
It only occur to me much later, that really i may have taken XR for granted and just throw him my aplenty moodiness, which might or may even have hurt him. As long as colleagues asses are covered, my ass is not exposed, why do i need to bother so much, and friends sharing their latest buys, good buys, cheap buys watever buys, was just a nice gesture of telling me, you can take these opinions for your reference.
Just like how i will give my movie reviews to my colleagues in the pantry during our chit chat seesion and our everyday email chats. I'll be the first to watch it. And if its bad, i'll come telling everyone that the movie is bad, don't watch it and save that money. I never got sore over why i had to spend my time and money to stop people from wasting theirs. First thing, not that i am super rich, but 9.50 bucks for a movie, yes, i can stil afford it. And secondly, basically, there is nothing much to do on a weekend, thats why usually i'll hit The Grand Cathy for a movie marathon. So i guess, its time to question my own ability, and not others.
Sometimes, i forgot, that no matter how small an issue may be, no matter what characteristic in that particular someone that i may not see eye to eye with, i must learn to see if that relationship is worth holding on. No matter how things turn out to be, i'll always remember that person exactly stood by me and believe in me when i was at my lowest. Because only a true friend will bother to give you a pat on your shoulder, a boost to your ego and you are really in need of one.
If i can accept so many others with weird personalities as a friend, why can't i accept one more, all the more, is the easiest going person i've ever known in my entire life.
Too chim? or too confused? Its ok..its for my own reference to my own life.
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My contract is coming to an end. How fast a year has gone passed.
Did i mention that i had the worse day ever in my life ever since i joined the company?
2:07 pm
Saturday, February 17, 2007
真的觉得自己非常讨人厌。
也许我真的就是这么样的一个人。是我的言行举止吗？或者是自己想得太多。。
心情真得非常差，嗨！就快要支持不住了。
1:10 pm
Monday, February 12, 2007
很多时侯，关怀不能随心表达。因为不知道可以用什么身份这么做。
当好朋友好一点的朋友？情侣会分手，好朋友才是一辈子的？说穿了，不过是不敢/不愿/不能爱。
我只想一步一步来。
2:47 pm
Thursday, February 08, 2007
3:37 pm
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
I have to admit the last day of the whole wake is the worse day to go through.
Not only was the rituals tedious, but you know that after today, Ah Mah only leaves in our own memories.
I am not recovered as yet, crying occasionally when i think of her.
I haven been a filial grandaughter. But her presence did impacted my life in many many ways.
I managed to do my last bit for Ah Mah, to make her look pretty on her final journey. Even though i was uber tired, and uber short of time, i still managed to complete it on time. Many thanks to those who helped.
Didn't expect Ah Mah will leave this world at this time, and i still wanted her to live many more years.
It felt very bad, when they had to close up the coffin, i could no longer look at Ah Mah sleep peacefully, its even worse when i saw her body being pushed into the furnance. Gone forever.
After the event, on the way to the temple, i was thinking, about after life, will the dead feel fiery furnance burning fiecely? I was wondering if Ah Mah will feel at home with her "new" place. I was wondering if she will get used to not having Nancy by her side.
Nancy was the next poor soul, no other maid on this earth can be compared to her. She gave her best til Ah Mah's very last breath. She was still strong thoughout the wake, still able to make jokes, and talk about the rest of my aunties and uncles having unresolved issues and havin quarrels here and there.
She broke down when she saw Ah Mah being pushed into the furnance. I caught her sitting alone after that dazing, there was nothing much i could do, but to walk over, gave her a pat on her shoulders and cry together with her.
Ah Mah is going to be buried together with her handsome husband, my Ah Gong.
I am still not used to not having Ah Mah around,
12:44 am
Sunday, February 04, 2007
Tired..i want to sleep for many many many days..
I need a good cry too..
2:44 am
Saturday, February 03, 2007
My maternal grandma passed away yesterday on the 2nd of Feb 2007 at 13:00.
Even though i rushed back immediately, i still didn't manage to see her for the last time.
And i was just thinking that i want to go visit her over the weekends.
I lost both my granny over a span of 2 years.
Both their passing did cost me something as they stayed with me for quite awhile when they were still healthy and strong.
I will always remember Ah ma..she bought me my first computer. And i owe her alot alot.
The wake starts tonight, ends Monday night.
12:35 pm
