Thursday, November 30, 2006

Greetings from office!!

They block Blogspot, but they didn't block blogger. So i am still able to sign in and blog!! Yeah!!

The time now is 1815hrs. And i am still in office. Waiting for my dear Jing Jing and Pok Pok for a trip down to Tampines. First time going "out" together. Hope there will be more to come.

The end of the week is finally here, and i can't wait for tomorrow to come as well. There is this dinner get together with some colleagues, i mean i am definitely looking forward to it, its a time i can get to know more people!

I am beginning to open up my mind more. Not dwelling on things which are not meant to be, but there are still certain issues to be clarified. I lost my self-esteem a few weeks back, and i need to find it back slowly.

Whats meant to be will be. If it should happen, it will. If its meant to be mine, it will.

Looking forward to next week as well, on leave on all Mondays to avoid Monday blues.

Christmas is scaringly near. Time is passing so fast that i am finding myself panting very hard.

Stopping here...ending off with a super creative link for you guys out there to try...

http://www.1-click.jp/

6:11 pm

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

Met a good friend of mine for dinner today, haven seen him for the past one year. Great time catching up, and yes, he poured some of his wisdom and his experiences on me.

Most important thing he said to me was :" You got to count your blessings, because once its gone, you might never find it again."

Simple sentence that i have heard a thousand times, mention a thousand times to others, but this coming out from someone 10 years older, someone whose been through alot, I must admit, it did get to me and make me realise alot of things.

Its good to see him after so much things, finally found someone he loves, have his own cute little child who he can put the rest of his time nurturing.

Pal, its been 7 years, I didn't believe that i could have a good friend whose 10 years older for so long to think that it is always a fruitful meeting everytime. 要加油！这一次，你一定会很幸福的！

10:04 pm

Monday, November 27, 2006

Feeling lethargic, very lethargic. I have no interest in anything anymore.

Just wish i can shut myself up in a KTV room and scream till my lungs are burst.

I practically drag myself to work today. And i know its going to be the same tomorrow and the day after. Wonder when all these is going to end.

Somethings needs to be talk through. We cannot just let it pass like that. Becos, a scar has been left on me when it happen.

I am no longer the energetic person i used to be. I no longer laugh hard at stupid jokes.

I can't find the energy to do what i ought to do.

I am shutting myself down, and its going to take time for me to reboot up.

10:50 pm

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

To you:

期望越高，失望越大。不要这么执迷不悟了，不会有结果的。他根本始终对你无动于衷，你到底还在等什么？珍惜眼前所有的，不要等到失去了才后悔。眼前所拥有的已经很好了，不要在让那根本不值得，不会珍惜你的男人伤透你的心。 虽然他可能并不知道， 你暗地里为他做了很多，虽然他可能也并不知道，你就是那么无法自拔地爱上他，虽然他做了一些不符逻辑的事，虽然我们并不知道他到底是不是在玩弄你，但这些已经并不重要了。 因为他始终是不值得的，根本就不值得。 清醒一点吧！

做个溅女人吗？但你始终无法冲破那思想。 你已经迷惘了，根本都不晓得自己真正要的是什么，但你又是那么自私，始终是放不下。

你要这么办？他也不回你的电话，发给他的信息，发给他的祝福完全落空。 醒一醒好不好？

你要加油！你一定可以的！

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2 songs that i have been playing a thousand time these day， there is something that is gripping me, moodiness, feeling depress all over again. Certain things which i can't share. But i have picking out on lyrics if you have ben reading my blogs, lyrics which touched my heart out the blue. Written so beautifully, i almost cried when i heard these...

想一生看下去，还会等一天八十岁，看你发端灰色的点缀，未来只有乐趣。 天真追我所追，只怕始终未登对。仍然想讲我第一句，我的双眼里，寻找到美丽之最。

说过爱你要接受意外，总要挑战障碍比赛。最怕看见你抱着决心离开。说过要与你赤道看海，更说永远爱你未改变。 等着你，目光未会离开。 等你，回我身边继续回味。 眼里每种温馨好滋味，未来只看着你。微笑中斑点会皱起，得我始终望穿你，仍然想讲，最后一句，我的双眼里，寻找到美丽之最。

Everytime when i'm thinking of you, i just don't know what to do, pinch myelf when i'm dreaming of you, making sure that you can love me too, i won't slip away, all my happy days. Though i make things cools, when i'm feeling blue, just to show that i am through with you, but i never wanted to.

How can love so beautiful ever slip away, when i get to the place, i swear i'll write you a song each and everyday, missing you is driving me so insane.......................

Can't explain, can't explain all my pain...

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朋友，生日快乐！

10:26 pm

Sunday, November 19, 2006

I just cant get somethings out of my mind.

Pea brain is cranking up with loads of things again.

I can't seem to get it out of my mind. I told Regina that i will....

Why?

Ending of another week. Starting of a new week. Things seem so mundane.

4:59 pm

3:27 pm

Thursday, November 16, 2006

Oh i just finish the show...i know i am abit slow...but i actually watched the show before on SCV. But miss out a few episodes so revisiting the whole show again.

Damn it! i fell in love with the cast. Ok i mean the MALE cast. How could it be? How can there be such gorgeous and beautiful man on earth? I am so mesmerized that i have to blog about it.

I simply can't get them out of my mind. I WANT TO MARRY THE BOTH OF THEM!!!!!! *Blush*

Hyun Bin. Charming, sexy, handsome handsome handsome handsome!!!!!!! I am dying under his charms. I am dead i mean. Really dead. If i see him on the streets i will grab him and smooch him like no tomorrow!!

And his born in 1982. Is like just 1 year older then me? Damn, how come his not a singaporean? But then again, if he has the singapore genes, maybe he may not be this good looking and beautiful.

Love the little dimple he has on his right cheek. I love the way he smile. Jay Chou looks abit like him when he smiles too! The way he smiles i mean...i like guys who has the shy smile. SO CUTE!!!!!! I want to eat him up already!!

Daniel Phillip Henny. Born in 1979. When i first saw him, i was like the girls in the show. Just cant stop staring at him, yes i mean on screen, STARE at him. I went stun. How more gorgeous can he be? I mean i really cannot think of any other word to describe him.

His features like all so well define, so nice and gentle at the same time. I just can't take my eyes off him.

GORGEOUS GORGEOUS GORGEOUS!!! *saliva drooling* why why why? Now i am starting to wonder how his parents look like. They must have great genes as well.

Seeing him makes me worry. I wonder how my kid will look like. What if my kid inherit my bad genes? Damn it, his ruin for life!!


I simply can't take the 2 of them out of my mind. I hope to meet them in my dreams.



*muacks Muacks*

11:43 pm

Thursday, November 09, 2006

Back from Thailand! Finally! ok i mean yeah, have been back for a few days already actually, but was too lazy to sit down infront of the lappy and start typing away.

Nothing much to updates, other then this being the suayest holiday i ever had, ( I had diarrhoea before reaching BKK, reach BKK my period came together with backaches and cramps, fever the following up till the day i touched down at Changi Airport.) Congratulate me!! -_-"

I felt like the biggest Cai Tou in BKK. Didn't bargain like how i vow i will. I was tok TOk TOk toK toK TOK by the marketers like nobody's business!! Come on! replace my head with a carrot head!! Use your imagination! Yeah! that's me in BKK, pretty huh?

But nontheless, admist the many quarrells (attributed by the many physical factors which in turn attribute to my mood) and the many sweet nothings which follows by closely, we still had our fair share of fun, laughter and joy.

It was still, Eat, Shop, Drop, Sleep, Eat, Shop, Drop pattern. I walked till my feet was covered with thick dead skin. Still remember the voice over the BRT " blah blah Por Tai, Ratchathewi" which translate directly to "next stop, Ratchathewi"

Pronounce together with me "Ra-che-deh-wi" --> Ratchathewi station, located right next to Asia Hotel, which happen to be just 10 mins walk from my hotel. And its just one stop away from the Siam pronounce as "Si-a-m" center. How wonderful!

10 Things i will never forget about BKK.

1) Schooling pretty gers in super tight, buttons bursting uniform. Damn! they can wear thick make ups and high heels together with their uniforms can!
2) BARGAIN!! REMEMBER TO BARGAIN!!
3) BKK is actually just like KL. Just the streets cleaner, pple nicer and friendlier and of cos, they speak in thai with a little English.
4) I feel like a giant in BKK. They are so small in size!
5) Ping Pong show. Milder without male version of Tiger show. Damn, waste money. Firstly, they tell you no cover charge, watch for free. PUI!! F*&^ off! bluff wan! Walk up nia, they trap you liao, pay for bloody drink which i didn't even dare to drink, next they ask you to pay 100 baht for the show which was suppose to be free, then the gers which comes in all shapes and sizes, real or unreal big or small "come mdm, massage massage, you first time here? " "Sing-pore good good" and then tada! --> "mdm, give tips, give tips" "mdm, 20baht only? other give 200 baht" "200 baht your head! take it or leave it!"
6) Never buy those famous "Dog shit" --> bak hu rolled up like dog shit in Chinatown. Bluff pple wan!! They tok my head like no tomorrow!! GO MBK BUY EVEN CHEAPER!!
7) Suan-Lum and Chatukchak is damn bloody big! You need one hour to decide what you wanna eat in Suan Lum, and you will eventually end up like me, eat what that is closest stall sells.
8) How can i forget, their MUA CHEE!! MUA CHEE!! MUA CHEE!! Is fried one! Different from S'pore!! VERY VERY VERY NICE!! *drooling* MUa CHee Can only be found in Chinatown for your info.
9) Loy Kratong (<--click) festival. The only very Thai thingy i did during my whole trip. We bought a small flower lantern called the Kratong, followed secretly behind a young couple, saw how they perform the simple ritual, and followed suit. Hahaha So fun! Wonder if my wish will come true..
10) Sushi tei in BKK is damn cheap!!!!!!!!! Seafood as well!!!

Photos will be updated shortly.

11:50 pm

Friday, November 03, 2006

11:49 am

Welcome!

there's nothing wrong with my name.
If you think you know me, read my blog and think again.
I'm imperfect and I'm Lovin' It.
I'm the only witness and the only person who can judge my life.
This is my blog so..then that is just too bad.

It's Me

I love flowers.
I love pink.
I'm stubborn and messy; absolutely lazy.
I mahjong till dawn,
I shop till dusk.
That's coz...
I'm who i AM.
And a beautifully FAT one too.

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