Monday, April 16, 2007
Faith is not a faithful blogger.
Haven been blogging for close to a month. I'm too tired these days to sit infront of the computer again after work just to blog myself away.
Some stuff happen at work today. I terminated my contract with the agency who place me into my current workplace, based on breach of contract on their part. And i just receive news from my supervisor that they are now moving me directly my company's payroll. I am not too sure if its a good move. Because i am having thoughts to move on. I have come to a point in which i have had enough of everything. The only thing that is making me stay is the team, and the friends i've made throughout the year. It didn't started all well for me, but i perservered. I won the team friendship through the past year. I stood by them when we go through multiple manpower changes, and that handful of us is still holding on, together with the new ones who are already commited into the job. Colleagues whom i have made abroad. It a daily thing for me now that i crap with people whom i have never met. Its amazing that they have become part of my life. My daily routine.
I have even come to a point where i stop taking MCs. Even when i am realy sick, i just want to go back to TS, and be with the people whom i see everyday. We may not share alot about our lives with each other. But its just nice having them around, seeing them smile, seeing them getting frustrated. Most importanty, getting irritated together, and scolding the big F word together.
Its the hard work that i have put into the beginning that i refuse to let go. They may not love me, they may detest me for heavens sake. But i really do love them from the bottom of my heart. I am even beginning to dread the coming of my shift, because that will mean that i will not be in office everyday.
But i really came to a point where i feel i really need to move on. What i am earning is basically not enough to provide for myself. I still have to slog myself everyday to give tuitions. Its really tiring.
Where would my future be. There are other things that are happening in life and its kind of weighing me down in some aspects of my life.
11:25 pm
