Thursday, November 03, 2005
Dunnoe what to blog.
But i have been spending time to do some catching up these few days. Met my poly friends, my poly bitching kakis. I mean ever since they grow out of TP. I haven really seen them and catch up on our lives as much as we used to. So glad that i am able to catch them before i start to work my ass off.
Thanks to JH, for accompanying me for my checkup today. Enjoyed myself while listening to you talk about the things and people you like and the things you can't accept. Cool. Nice catching up time. Sometimes, too many people around, you just can't be more open and talk about things in a deeper depth. Spent some quality time with xinyu too, talk about the things that is happening around us and our opinions.
We saw women's weekly admist waiting for liyan, this month featured a article about women who helped (yes, literally helped) their boyfriends or husbands to commit rape and murder. Feeling oh so disgusted by it. Sometimes i just wonder, wonder about the functions of our brains and heart. Wonder at how things that happen can caused a normal person to fall deep into the situation and do things that are clearly morally wrong? I mean LITERALLY WRONG IN ANY SENSE!! I can't sleep well if i have a little issue tugging at my gulity conscience. I just can't bring myself to do things which are totally wrong. I wonder really wonder, do they still sleep tightly at night? Still eat heartily after cutting up the bodies? I can't. My gulity conscience still rule over me. I can't, simply can't just to bring myself to do anything be it just think not even do things that are morally wrong.
Getting all jittery again just by mentioning work. Excited yet not really anticipating it to come. Why? I guess i am really excited about the monthly income. The working life. But i kind of will miss the relaxing time that i used to enjoy when i am still a student. 3 more days to working life. Wish me luck man. God please grant me the favour.
Speaking of which. I spent so much just for work. Kaoz, haven even work and earn, i already have to spent so much for it. Cannot believe it.
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