Sunday, October 16, 2005
This week has much been a reflecting week. Certain issues, certain thinking. Maybe that is becos i have finally able to close a chapter and somewhat know where i will be heading, a transition people will call it. Caught in between and feelings are all overwhelmed.
Had much an exciting week though. Am very happy for hear that both good friend of mine passed their driving. One passed on her 4th. The other made us female proud by just accomplishing it on the 2nd attempt. (from most females friends i have, they either got it on 3rd or more tries good and very happy for you.)
Speaking about driving, i really have this unspeakable fear. The trauma of 2 accidents, all small accidents though, is good enough for me to have an overwhelming fear about driving a car. Plus yesterday's incident, nope, Chris did a great job in my opinion. I will definitely not able to do it if i were to be in her position. The night before's 2nd accident had such an impact on me that when i was on the car when chris is driving her first time, when climbing up the slope, when the car suddenly go sliding down, i think fear overtook in a mere second and i scream "brake!". Sorry if u ever read this. My fault, i must scare you and you kept apologsing. Is my fault that i was scare and resulted in a scream which mught have scare you. But u really did very well. Is just my fear for driving. It hasn't gone away from me since the first "bang" i had. Hey, i am honoured to be on a car of a first time driver. --issue 1--
Just read a friend's blog, he was toking about friendship, drifting, just want to say that becos everyone is growing up in their own pace. Some slower, some faster. Drifting thus occur. Friendship is all about give and take. For the sake of a person, you give some and take some. The day u decided to stop giving and taking on this person, that marks the end of a great friendship. Maintenence is effort, more effort put in, this ship called "friendship" will look better and sail smoother.
Sometimes i do wonder do i deserve the many insults that i have received. Although many times i know that it didn't came the way it was intended. Just like a bunch of my friends would call me "gui wang" i wasn't insulted. I know is for fun, although some times, when i wasn't in a perfected mood and i feel like crying. There is this recent friend, ( do i call him a friend? I only hung out with him a few times as his the bf of my close sister) whom got me so insulted. Think he is getting too familiar with me that he thinks is fine to insult me. And still expects me to smile at him. Big tells me to just show him my middle finger next time and keep quiet. --issue 2--
Been thinking alot, looking at what some of my friends are going through, even though there are things which is wrong, i cannot put my foot in and stop her from doing it. --issue 3--
Went to sentosa in the evening time yesterday, to help a friend to win the heart of a ger. I agree with JH. I thot he wants to propose to the ger to marry her! But nonetheless, this friend of mine is a undeniably romantic himself. Guys out there should learnt from him. If i am the ger, i would be so touched. And this friend of mine sure is blessed with many great friends who is willingly to go through the many hours of waiting and fighting tiredness just to help. Yeah friendship is priceless. Sorry that i was not there at the initial planning stage. I could see that everyone is tired. But Xr and me still manage to bring down the candles for you. Hope everything will go well between you and her.
YEsterday went to meet my primary school friends. Wow! thinking of it, it has been a good 10 years already! I had fun meeting and catching up with them.
I am going out now...be back for more....
5:44 pm
