Thursday, August 04, 2005
The difference between a guy friend and boyfriend....That is........my guy friends knows me..but my boyfriend knows me exceptionally well!!
I was so amazed at the telepatic that i shared with bigbig today!! We were smsing each other during the day, and in between that sms conversation that we were having, i happen to tell him that i am a little not of myself today...nothing exceptionally fantastic here happen till much later when i was walking around century square, i met this friend of mine. You know, i always have this thing about meeting my outside friends whether they are from church or other places when i am looking like my worst. I was wearing like i am going to some funeral, my hair was messy, my face was pale like a ghost, and most importantly, my skin and my expression screams out "i am DAMN LETHARGIC!". Gosh!!
So i settled myself at coffeebean, wondering why i am so damn tired where i didn't even do a single thing other then just the earlier tuition that i had. I even went down to count the numbers of hours i spent sleeping, thinking about all the activities that i have done, and i just couldn't understand why the lethargic feeling was all over me.
I asked my group of 4 guy friends who came to look for me later. All of them gave me the same answer, "you must have slept too much!" But deep down i wasn't very satisfied with their answer, becos i know i didn't sleep alot. I only slept about 6-10 hrs each day, thats not alot what. So i decided to sms bigbig and ask if he can give me a satisfactory answer. Lo and behold! Not only did he give me an answer that i am totally pleased with, he made my day totally on the spot. My eyes just lifted up! just like tht. We just clicked on the instance. My friends was like asking me "wah! wat happen why u suddenly so energetic?". Bigbig send me a sms asking me, if i wasn't feeling motivated, and issit becos that there is something that i didn't really like and is rather important going to happen.
Oh yeah! and i didn't tell him that my judging was coming on the 10 aug at 2pm. I am so damn stress out by it! Bigbig made me realise what i was being tight down and ran over with. Is just that i didn't realise that the pressure was building up on me so much that i am feeling very lethargic and dragged by the whole thing.
That's what boyfriends are for! To be your pillar of strength and give you that unspeakable and indescribable dose of energy that you have been searching high and low for. That instant spark! Alright, this thought may vary from people to people. Its true for me, but might not be for you.
One thing i know for myself. I really love bigbig and i really thank god for giving such a uniquely beautiful man into my life!!
(p.s: I am really scare!!! Siao liao!! )
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