Friday, April 29, 2005
Feeling pretty low recently. I think is because of stress? I am not sure. I need to change, my body screams "RUN AWAY!!!!!" I have got a feeling like i am going through a changing process, or issit i need to change from whatever i am doing now, the environment that i am in. ARRGHH!!! I don't know what i want!!!!
But i still have to say sorry to those that i might have offended some ways some how. I also dunnoe. Nah, maybe i didn't mean people didn't appreciate what i have done. I was actually thinking "But if i don't do it, who would?" Yeah, but due to the me, going through a very trying period, tough and stressful, I guess i blown up very easily. I love to do alot of things, sing, love all my friends, love my bigbig etc, I always try to be there for my friends who needed encouragement. I actually felt happy when one or two friends who aren't feeling good about themselves. I actually felt happy when i see my friends, one by one getting into this boat called love, seeing them enjoying their own bliss. I think i have tried my best to be a accomodating understanding girlfriend, a good, loving and understanding "always there" friend. Maybe I have come to a point where i needed someone to give me a pat on my shoulders and tell me "well done. " or maybe i am just a failure, unable to do many things, unable even to do my project, unable to be a good friend. Gosh!!
I dunnoe what to do with myself. Wanna a get away. Hibernate.
1:18 am
