Monday, December 06, 2004
Went to Toa Payoh today to see how a gaming finals looks like. Hahaha but is like nothing interesting anyway. Then i met irene and van to shop around Toa Payoh central, bought a pair of pants and i bought a super cheap bag at only $5 nia!!! So happy!!!!!
While dada was having his dinner in ECP, we watched this documentary show on channel U. "Leng Nuan Ren Jian" I was so touched. I wanted to cry when i saw the baby born deformed, and how the parents came to singapore to accept help from singapore doctors to correct the baby's deformity through surgery as much as they can do. My heart just went out to this baby girl. Seeing all those stables used to hold her head scare tight, the cast on her tiny legs, etc, i could feel her pain. I went through a minor surgery before, just two cuts under my armpits and i cried and scream like crazy due to the enormous pain, and for a tiny baby to go through all those major surgery, imagine the kind of pain they are put into, how would a young baby know what is pain? I was soften, I admired the parents, i admired all the parents in this world who has child that is either born deform, intellectually challenged or etc. They would not give up on their child a single bit and will willingly give their whole life to care and love this child of theirs. I learnt about how dada's sister become a physically and mentally handicap, due to bursting of a blood clot in her brains when she was still a baby. I admire dada's mum, i have seen lots of cases like these, on tv and when i visit the JAMS church. But i have never had a case so close in my life. For the past 9 months, i have seen how dada's mum and dad, bathe, feed, play and talk to her. And i have always enjoyed those moments with them. Just like what dada says, to his sister, there is no sadness, no spot of dirt in her mind. Everything is just pure and simple. I enjoyed watching the whole family sit around the living room and eat together, i felt warmth.
Maybe alot of people would say that i wouldn't know anything, but i just thought for a moment that having to care for child like this is an honor from God. Of cos, every parents in this world would want a healthy and normal child. Every child, normal and healthy or not is still very precious. It takes unfailing love and care, a sacrificial spirit to care for child that needs special attention. If God hasn't seen these parents with these kind of large hearts, he will never place these special child into these parents life. He wouldn't want to place this special child into the hands of a uncaring parent, even healthy and normal babies are being abandon everyday in this world, whats more a not loving, uncaring narrow hearted parent would do to a harmless child who needs special attention? So i say "IT IS NEVER YOUR FAULT OR YOU OWE THIS CHILD ANYTHING FROM YOUR PREVIOUS LIFE, IT IS JUST SIMPLY BECOS GOD SAW THAT YOU HAVE A VERY BIG HEART, SO GOD ENTRUST THIS SPECIAL CHILD INTO YOUR HANDS."
Some of you might say that is easy for me to say. If i ever know that i would have a special child, i will still gladly accept it and bring this child into this world, If my relationship with xianrong can last a lifetime, i will gladly take up the responsibility to look after his sister. Becos i tell myself that i will use my whole life to love this man, so i will, if he will to take me into his family, i will love his sister just the same he loves her.
Schools starting this week. So fast eh?? hahahahaha. I think so too. But i have been lobo-ing for very long. Is actually a good thing that school is starting. hahahahaha.
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