Tuesday, December 21, 2004
Arrgghh!! My hand hurts. Due to too much using of the computer and my hand position is not right. I was surfing through flowerpod again. Then this insecure feelings came again. Nah, i only didn't trust this particular person, no i am not afraid becos i know that she will not be able to chance upon my blog. But what the others say was quite true. If she hasn't had any feeling for my guy, then why would she feel so weird if i am around?? Then if she really is just a very good friend, why wouldn't she want to know who is her good friend's gf??
I am very particular about this. I am perfectly fine with any other female friends. Just not this one. Whoever that exist as his friend or his very good friend i have no bad feelings about it. But just this particular one which i find it very weird and everytime i think of it, i just feel very uncomfortable. My bf is no longer just my bf anymore. He has become my Significant Other. And i do get very sensitive with these kind of things. I am just wondering, with whoever i am fine, perfectly fine. But anything to do with this particular person...is like a no no. It just come naturally.
Ok, i am at it again. Getting myself think of things that are obviously not a problem at the moment. Hahaha. Ok now i feel so much better. At least i never keep it within myself. Actually call it, the female sixth sense or something. I just dun feel good about her. If there could be a way. I would wish she get off our back. Like i say, yap, she will never get to read this. Maybe i am just thinking too much.
Its 4.45pm. Another 45mins to clocking out. I have to teach tuition tonight. Actually i dun really feel like teaching this particular kid. I dunnoe if any of you understand how i feel. I am ok with teaching, but not this kid. Is nothing to do with the kid. Of just say is me, i dun like the kid at the first impression. I am wondering how do i get myself out of this. Help me!!!!!!!!! is not his fault la, just that we dun have the "yuan fen" i think. I wish i could help him, but deep down i really feel like i can't help him la, i also dunno why.
4:30 pm
