Wednesday, December 29, 2004
One more week of 2004 and is all over. So much of an emotion for the year 2004. Was talking to a friend on what was the best and worse thing that has happen to you in this 2004. For her was nothing much, but the ebst thing she said that happened was her job. She found a very good job. It was my turn, i took awhile and ponder. The answer was XR. ok, this is not another dedication of my love for him or whatever. But there were many times in my life where i was left thinking, what could have happen to me if i hasn't met him during my lowest point in life. I started the year 2004 in a lowest note i could go. It was a terrible start. I didn't even know what to do with my life, i was left shattered into pieces and was picking myself up piece by piece and this someone came along stood by side and pick up those pieces with me. I am very grateful to him, my love, becos he brought in the the warmth, companionship and happiness.
This year's xmas was so different. Yes, very because i didn't spend it in church. I actually miss
celebrating xmas in church, i miss all the fun, the lovely feeling, the carols, the drama etc. I
chose a quieter get together. On the actual day, i finally got the xmas feeling back cos i went back to spend it with my cell group members. Quite fun, sabo the bdae babies. Then i went to spend some time alone with dada, then movie with xinyu and gang. KUNG FU HUSTLE is so damn funny!!!! But is like the funny and chinese version of Matrix. The best part came next where we went to surprise Mingzhi cos of his bdae and we ended up playing MONOPOLY at dat fong's house. Played till 5.30am man!! And i am very glad that dada actually enjoyed himself.
Have to start woking on my new year resolution soon. Was suddenly reminded of that year where we sat down at airport to write down our resolution. That was the past anyway. I ended 2004 with a choice i never wanted to make. To some, and to me i ended this year with a bad note. I ended my church life, just like that. I hope to go back one day. But am feeling very lost. I still don't know where i should head, what i should do. And now, i just want to be at my most comfortable level. I love my dada, and i would want to have a great 2005 with him. And of cos for the many more years to come. The best thing that has happen to me in the year 2004.
2 more days to 2005. Enough time for a miracle???
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